AS YOUR BODY AND LIFE FALLS APART….

How blessed I feel to be finally able to be with those parts of me that I have neglected for so long. Unknowingly yes, but that does not take away that I have left myself standing in the dark with no care and no love. Now it's my time to make up. No wanting to fix it, heal it, let it go or whatever term we love to use when we want to get rid of something…… I am determined to make up for my past neglect by giving them my love, compassion and foremost all the time they need. To be fully with them, to let them be part of my life and not to hide them, pushed them to heal, intervene or to cover up anymore. Those parts complete me in a way that I can’t describe.

Please don’t try to make this earth a better place

It’s our attachment to the “good”, our fear and inability to be with our (hidden) pains that make us run from one thing to another trying to make a good life, a better life. Trying to make the lives of others better. And by running and running in avoidance to be confronted with pain and to miss out on the promised ‘good life’ we miss out on life itself.

My Vipassana Silent Retreat Experience

The technique invited me to neutrally and with equanimity observe all just as it is, not as I wish it to be, but fully as it is. No internal visualization, mantras or guiding thoughts, it had to stay mere observation the reality of the now. I learned to welcome with no resistance all I experience— the hardly bearable physical and emotional pains and the indescribable great sensation — and all that by simply observing and experiencing my inner world.

Unconscious repetition or conscious evolution ─ cutting the cord of dependency on our past

My Life, what is my life actually? Before we know when we grow older we might see that we have become more and more like our parents/caretakers. How is our life influenced by people who are perhaps not even alive anymore. What is needed to really live our own life? Do we really have one? Or is … Continue reading Unconscious repetition or conscious evolution ─ cutting the cord of dependency on our past

Joy and happiness have nothing to do with each other. Read here how not knowing this sabotages your life choices.

That I lived for the longest time in limbo and dissatisfaction was because I intermingled those two words — happiness and joy — those two words have actually nothing, and I mean really nothing to do with each other. Let me share one of my biggest illusion. I thought always that joy is just a … Continue reading Joy and happiness have nothing to do with each other. Read here how not knowing this sabotages your life choices.

The gift to connect and disconnect freely

In our social, emotional and spiritual development we encounter 32 gifts and are invited to unpack them during our life. The gift of connecting and disconnecting freely determines our relationship with the duality of life. Today I love to give a small impression on how it might look like if we were fearless in the topic of … Continue reading The gift to connect and disconnect freely

Rude and ignorant or just nuts?

When do we grant someone to be mentally disturbed….yes I say grant, because it comes with many advantages compared with the normal mental disorders that we simply call rude, selfish, stupid or ignorant.  The labeled mentally disturbed person is not held responsible anymore for what he does because we have somehow agreed not to expect any different … Continue reading Rude and ignorant or just nuts?

The gift in not being understood

Being misunderstood, or not being understood at all is for many people quite frustrating and also painful. The painful feeling of not being understood knows deeper levels like not being seen, which results in a feeling of being lost (disappearing),  for others its more related to ‘not getting what I need’ and panic of ‘ … Continue reading The gift in not being understood