My Vipassana Silent Retreat Experience

dhara271Quite a life experience I had during this 10 day silent meditation retreat Vipassana.  I learned a wonderful meditation technique which I think is really great.

There are some aspects of this Meditation that touches my truth fully. One is that during the meditation only own resources are experienced.  Meaning no music, no nice guidance, no light, no ceremony, no created nice atmosphere by candles, beautiful cushions etc. Let me say all the things we perhaps love to surround us with which evoke pleasurable feelings in us. No this meditation relays fully on our very own inner awareness and beauty — but it goes much further than that. Continue reading

Unconscious repetition or conscious evolution ─ cutting the cord of dependency on our past

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My Life, what is my life actually? Before we know when we grow older we might see that we have become more and more like our parents/caretakers. How is our life influenced by people who are perhaps not even alive anymore. What is needed to really live our own life? Do we really have one? Or is all connected and intertwined.   Continue reading

Life is a playground not a school

tree 3For many it’s true that we are supposed to learn something in our life, others believe it’s about healing karma and some think life’s hard lessons are there to strengthen us to be better prepared to deal with life’s challenges…  I think all of them are right.  As you perceive life, you will most likely experience life.

Lately I saw a test where they put different film music’s under one fighting movie scene. It was hilarious to see. The funny music, just made me grin when one was flying over the table after a hit. Then there was an action music, the whole scene changed for me and I felt excited and tensed. Then with the dramatic music I had almost tears in my eyes and wanted to jump in to help and comfort.

Our main beliefs we have about life colour drastically our perception and with that our feelings and impulses we experience while living, just like a movie music colours the movie and determines your experience.

For the longest time I belonged to the group of people that think that we have to learn and to develop in life in order to live a life by own design. Continue reading

Joy and happiness have nothing to do with each other. Read here how not knowing this sabotages your life choices.

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That I lived for the longest time in limbo and dissatisfaction was because I intermingled those two words — happiness and joy — those two words have actually nothing, and I mean really nothing to do with each other.
Let me share one of my biggest illusion. I thought always that joy is just a deeper version of happiness.  Just something that not just makes me smile but is also connected with love. I was kind of done with just being happy, I liked it but I could not put my energy together anymore to really go for it like  a nice talk, nice food,  a great party or this beautiful beach I love so much.  All this was wonderful but I had no longing for it anymore. The closest to joy I came when I could deeply connect with people, could feel love. But after some time I knew Continue reading

The gift to connect and disconnect freely

dualityIn our social, emotional and spiritual development we encounter 32 gifts and are invited to unpack them during our life. The gift of connecting and disconnecting freely determines our relationship with the duality of life. Today I love to give a small impression on how it might look like if we were fearless in the topic of connecting and disconnecting.  Continue reading

Rude and ignorant or just nuts?

download (1)When do we grant someone to be mentally disturbed….yes I say grant, because it comes with many advantages compared with the normal mental disorders that we simply call rude, selfish, stupid or ignorant.  The labeled mentally disturbed person is not held responsible anymore for what he does because we have somehow agreed not to expect any different behaviour from that person.

But honestly said, Continue reading

The gift in not being understood

not-understoodBeing misunderstood, or not being understood at all is for many people quite frustrating and also painful. The painful feeling of not being understood knows deeper levels like not being seen, which results in a feeling of being lost (disappearing),  for others its more related to ‘not getting what I need’ and panic of ‘ I will never get what I need’  might come up. Continue reading

This book loves YOU

High Resolution Front Cover_6060104 This book helped me to really fall in love with my own life by experiencing the deep guidance and love that lies in my seemingly insignificant ordinary daily life. It helped me with the in the book described gifts to see my illusions and to give me direction in my daily life. Experiencing this made me appreciate more and more all the happenings in my life, not because I tell myself that all is as it should be and that I have to learn some lessons — no not at all — its because I see, understand and feel the guidance and by that the presence of God, Love and Space.  I feel carried by life, I feel safe, grateful and always lovingly looked at. Continue reading

The beauty of being useless

 

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Much of pain is caused in many lives because of the feeling of being of no use, or our doubt that we are a meaningful contribution, that we are doing enough or doing it good enough.

The pain is not just caused by the named above, because most people suppress more or less successfully those feelings by proving themselves that they are of much use. They are great contributors, much needed and often seemingly irreplaceable at the workplace, with friends or family, hobby or ─ you fill it in.  And we also have the martyr type who  clears the mess others make: “If I don’t do it, who will?”  Finally we exhaust ourselves or neglect other important areas in our lives like our health, friends, family, carrier etc.  Yet our (hidden) fear to be of no use is so strong that we sacrifice our real joy in order to get that little or big glimpse of being somehow important.

How would it be if we would be totally at peace with being useless, I mean really useless, unable to produce anything? Continue reading

Help- I am authentic!

authenticity_sealIn my work with children it was amazing to see, how quickly certain fears could be released and conducive pattern installed often with hardly any effort, while at the same time other themes were so stuck and unmovable to the frustration of the parents who loved to see their kid happy and successful. With time I saw that the age of the child seemed to play an important role.  From the age of 11-15 many topics that were stuck before came slowly into movement. I always wondered why.  In 2012 I was inspired by several silent retreats and I started to understand this pattern which was not making much sense before because I always thought mistakenly that healing our pain was the key to become an authentic person, closer to who we really are and the earlier we could heal this pain and release destructive pattern the better it would be.  Continue reading