Quite a life experience I had during this 10 day silent meditation retreat Vipassana. I learned a wonderful meditation technique which I think is really great.
There are some aspects of this Meditation that touches my truth fully. One is that during the meditation only own resources are experienced. Meaning no music, no nice guidance, no light, no ceremony, no created nice atmosphere by candles, beautiful cushions etc. Let me say all the things we perhaps love to surround us with which evoke pleasurable feelings in us. No this meditation relays fully on our very own inner awareness and beauty — but it goes much further than that. Continue reading
For many it’s true that we are supposed to learn something in our life, others believe it’s about healing karma and some think life’s hard lessons are there to strengthen us to be better prepared to deal with life’s challenges… I think all of them are right. As you perceive life, you will most likely experience life.
In our social, emotional and spiritual development we encounter 32 gifts and are invited to unpack them during our life. The gift of connecting and disconnecting freely determines our relationship with the duality of life. Today I love to give a small impression on how it might look like if we were fearless in the topic of connecting and disconnecting. 
When do we grant someone to be mentally disturbed….yes I say grant, because it comes with many advantages compared with the normal mental disorders that we simply call rude, selfish, stupid or ignorant. The labeled mentally disturbed person is not held responsible anymore for what he does because we have somehow agreed not to expect any different behaviour from that person.
Being misunderstood, or not being understood at all is for many people quite frustrating and also painful. The painful feeling of not being understood knows deeper levels like not being seen, which results in a feeling of being lost (disappearing), for others its more related to ‘not getting what I need’ and panic of ‘ I will never get what I need’ might come up. 
This book helped me to really fall in love with my own life by experiencing the deep guidance and love that lies in my seemingly insignificant ordinary daily life. It helped me with the in the book described gifts to see my illusions and to give me direction in my daily life. Experiencing this made me appreciate more and more all the happenings in my life, not because I tell myself that all is as it should be and that I have to learn some lessons — no not at all — its because I see, understand and feel the guidance and by that the presence of God, Love and Space. I feel carried by life, I feel safe, grateful and always lovingly looked at. 
In my work with children it was amazing to see, how quickly certain fears could be released and conducive pattern installed often with hardly any effort, while at the same time other themes were so stuck and unmovable to the frustration of the parents who loved to see their kid happy and successful. With time I saw that the age of the child seemed to play an important role. From the age of 11-15 many topics that were stuck before came slowly into movement. I always wondered why. In 2012 I was inspired by several silent retreats and I started to understand this pattern which was not making much sense before because I always thought mistakenly that healing our pain was the key to become an authentic person, closer to who we really are and the earlier we could heal this pain and release destructive pattern the better it would be. 